Hormones just suck

I’m just in a shitty fucking mood today and just feel the need to rant . I don’t even know why I’m in a bad mood , just woke up and thats how I felt , I just wanna go crawl into bed and stay there for the entire night . Where I just want to wear my sunglasses all day and night , even inside cause that way no one will see my eyes and know how I’m actually feeling . I don’t want to be around anyone and the one person I do want to talk to and do want to see , and who would make me feel soo much better with one word is just frustrating me more , its just a fucking fantastic day , I just want to cry . I want this day to be over with , its exhausting pretending I’m okay . And like FUCK ! When I say , oh I feel as if you’ve been distant lately , don’t fucking reply with oh well everythings fine LOL …. , worst answer ever . FOR FUCK . Like the least you could do way say something that would put my mind at ease , not something that’ll make me feel fucking worse . Thanks . Loveee you too..

my text I woke up to (:

You are the best person , the best girlfriend , the best bestfriend & the best lover in the world . I love you so damn much , I’m so happy that we’re together .
You absolutly make me feel complete , and I couldn’t be happier . I hope you have a great day babe , I’ll be thinking about you all day .

How did I get so lucky ? I lovee him so .
Congrats again babe , 120 days sober .I’m so very proud of you

I’m more than certain I’ve found my one , I don’t think life could be any better than it is now :)
No more drama , drugs , no more being a low life , I’m an auntie now , I have a amazing boyfriend who calls me his queen & the woman of his dreams . I have a perfect connection with my family , everyones so proud of how much I’ve matured , going back to school , working , settling down . Reconnecting with friends I haven’t seen in over 6 years and its like nothing’s changed we just picked up where we last left off , I don’t think you could ask for a happier woman than I .